Love Cami.

pilot me.

2011-07-17T00:55:00.001-07:00

this weekend i had the pleasure of attending the temple with some dear friends of mine. it was her first time. it’s amazing, the love you can feel for others. my friends warm my soul.

oh by the way, im an RN. nbd!

photos of some pretty flowers from a recent reception.

ron ron…ron weasley.

2011-07-16T00:40:00.001-07:00

you know that feeling when you get home from harry potter and the deathly hollows part 2 and your eyes are all puffy cause you cried through the whole things and you really wish you would have seen it in california because their theaters had grief counselors to catch you as you sobbed your way past the concession stands to help you put your life back together after your childhood came to a cashing brilliant end. cause i do.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2011-07-10T16:05:00.001-07:00

im having a mid mid life crisis.

my boards are this week.

i caaaant stop studying/freakingout/hyperventilating.

if i dont pass please still give me loves.

excuse me while i go barf. wishingiwasstillhiking/sleepingunderthestars.

ill update you on this crazybones trip soon.

AND my first guest post on the lovely busy bee laurens blog. Check it out!

im so glad when daddy comes home.

2011-06-19T15:07:00.001-07:00

today i was thinking about how bomb.com my dad is. it brought me back to second grade. i was one of those kids that made tunnels in the sand , or played chinese jump rope with my gurrrrls during recess.… i had my first bully encounter that year and he was a smelly, red head boy named nathan hamburg. i called him nathan hamburger, which probably didnt help my case. he used to chase me around the playground and one day, he caught me. he ripped my sweet silky blue shirt and i turned to him and yelled, “ MY DAD’S GONNA PUT YOU IN JAIL!” and i believed it. i threatened mean people daily with that line, cause shoot, my dad’s a copper crime stopper and has a badge to show it. i had so much love and faith in my papa. every year for show and tell id stand up and list off all the cool things my dad did for work, instead of bringing in my new beanie baby. which has grown since…. (not the beanie baby collection.. although we do have a tub of them. which will be on display at my wedding.)

-motorcycle cop. < dont judge, he was probably the only legit one out there.

-swat team. < seee cool.

-undercover narcotics. < i seriously cried every morning he left for work cause i was scared he was gonna die. :( i knew too much. he had a beard and was the guy that did the drug deals before the cops would pounce on the crim.

- homicide. <did i mention how amazing his campfire stories are? dead people.

-interrogator of all the boys i dated. . . . . i feared for the boys. i also missed a couple dates cause they didnt pass.

my dad has seen so much, mostly the worst of people. yet he is the most nonjudgmental, kind hearted person i know. eeek, im tearing up.. i would not be the person i am today if it wasnt for his constant affection, his daily hugs, and allll the life lessons ive learned by watching his example. you’ve heard my dad isms… he’s as blunt as they come. he keeps me sane and grounded and he gave me my gangly body. i love you pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa! the hand on the hip looks great on you.

tempting..

2011-06-01T11:22:00.001-07:00

i cant believe im saying this..but im considering spending over 100 bucks for a modest swim suit. anthro, you’ve done good. any good alternatives friends? swim suits and prom dresses… never modestly stylish/afordable. grr.

peace.

2011-05-28T13:12:00.001-07:00

have you every wondered how you got on a topic of conversation and traveled back on your train of thought? if you followed my thought process, you’d probably get lost and confused in my imagination. i was blessed to do a session with my dear friend mill this week. a year ago i was struggling with the thought of going through a session alone. all i had ever known was going through as a wife. it seemed so silly to be frightened to go alone, but with my girlfriends by my side we sat, we cried and we were uplifted. my eyes were opened to the strength that going through the temple with your close friends brings. If you haven't gone through with a girlfriend, try it. i have learned so much from these beautiful women, and there is a closeness it brings that cant be matched.

ive fought with the thought of sharing this but ive felt so strongly that it could maybe help another woman (or dude i guess) that struggles with the thoughts that go through so many of our minds. this particular session brought to light the importance of speaking kindly of others. And not only speaking kindly, but seeing the positive in everything and everyone. when we let negativity sprout its poisonous roots within us, it becomes a cancer that spreads to all things. When i view others in a negative light i start allowing that negative poison to pulse through my veins and soon my view of life becomes tinted. I become critical of myself, my temper shortens, and it kills the spirit. changing our view and seeing the positive is the cure. it’s so powerful to me that doing something as simple as following Christ's example completely extinguishes all negativity. It’s automatic, you view yourself and others as Gods children instead of only seeing their flaws. Life could be so great if we just loved each other.

Brade and i were discussing this and he brought up “his constitution for life.” I had never seen this document before but im in love. it’s called desiderata. read it, love it, live it.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly;

and listen to others,

even the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,

they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain or bitter;

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;

it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs;

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals;

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially, do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love;

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be,

and whatever your labors and aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

top it off!

2011-05-24T12:27:00.001-07:00

this must be overwhelming…i posted 3 times in 4 days…but i have some fab news!

i collaborated with Boutique To You to shoot a lookbook for their summer collection of tees. BTY is an online boutique that brings celebrity style to you. it was a dream to work with these girls and all the bananas-blowmymind-amazing clothing. i kept feeling a need to pinch myself throughout the process. i think i found my new calling/dreamjob/ohmygoodnessilovedeverysecondofthis. to see lookbook click here.

too see more fun photos click here.

the moon glows yellow in the riptide.

2011-05-23T14:39:00.001-07:00

girls are weird.

yesterday i missed my ward due to these lovelies being in town. yes that’s my brother, he’s handsom and he’s getting MARRIED! to this lovely lady. i started getting these text messages mid drive. brady had to read them due to my hands being full of steering wheel.

-i missed you in choir today, come next week so we can sing alto together.

-i miss your face, and i did my hair like yours today.

brady started going off about how weird girls are. you love on each other, emulate each others looks and are constantly complimenting each other. could you imagine boys talking like girls do? it’s almost a natural instinct in girls to build each other up. when that instinct is tampered with, it turns into tearing each other down. it’s a sad truth. he tired to explain man love. he told me, every time i punch my roommate, we grow a little closer.

no no brady, boys are weird.

ahhhhhhhh.

2011-05-20T17:17:00.001-07:00

ive diagnosed myself with post graduation stress syndrome. it’s a certain disorder in which your brain poops out. yesterday I sat at the temple waiting for the bride and groom to make their exit. i sat there for an hour, camera in hand and then i started freaking out. did i miss the wedding? oh my gosh, ive NEEEVER done that. what do i ? i texted the bride and she texted me back….her wedding was the next day. today, i was at wendys with the bradester and of course i ordered fries. i grabbed a sacrament cup thang to fill up with ketchup and i totally missed. i didnt realize how nasty a handful of ketchup feels until today. now that i think about it, a lot of my friends are preggerz. instead of sympathy weight, it could be sympathy brain loss. on a lighter note, im alive. i thought for sure nursing school would kill me. thanks for all the congrats friendz. photo taken by a rock.

cami overload. you’ve been warned.

2011-04-20T16:30:00.001-07:00

hey guys. im graduating. i passed and stuff. i had a huge freak out when it happened. full on hit the floor, legs kicking in the air, squealing, crying, clapping, craziness. this has been a long two years and it’s ending with a post finals preceptorship. WHICH is like an internship at the hospital for 7-12 hr shifts.. WHERE i happen to be in an L&D department.. WHICH i happen to love and adore. so peeps, cross your fingers that i get a job so someday you can pop your baby out with me!

since im all like, about me and stuff right now, i felt it fitting to share this lovely shoot that i was asked to be apart of. when anna initially told me about the project i was pumped to be a photographer with her. later i found out she didnt want me to shoot with her…she wanted me to model………..i think i choked on my diet coke when she clarified. you see, i have this deep fear of being photographed, which could correlate with my love for being behind the camera, and only behind the camera. i tend to hide behind it. Anna + Jason made me feel so comfortable and i ended up having a blast. to see more check out their photo blog. i just adore these two.

my brain hurts.

2011-04-04T21:05:00.001-07:00

imagine the pure joy i felt when i walked into my test today only to have the entire back row crack up laughing at the sight of me. i stressed my way though my weekend in preparation for the 4 hour death trap of a test i had today. if you look up you may notice a slightly deranged looking girl pointing at a left hand which happens to be attached to her. no she’s not pointing at an engagement ring, but a sweet drawing of her hand bones. these bones might have been drawn on her during a certain conference where her boyfriend may have gotten a bit stir crazy and began doodling on her skin. little did she know that she had the capability to put on two bracelets and a watch without noticing that her lack of showering left her sweet tat upon her hand/arm(yes i have a ulna and radius in addition to my hand bones + no i dont shower everyday, call me gross). my classmates didnt realize the huge advantage i had today, being able to remember that there are bones in my hand during the test. suckers. wait that makes me a cheater…

lub-dub

2011-03-28T11:13:00.001-07:00

hearts make this noise. if yours doesnt, you should prooobably see your doctor.

my heart has been palpitating lately. skipping beats, racing out of control.

my diagnosis has to do with a certain boy.

or it might be that bomb homemade carrot cake i made last night.

no raisins=purehappinessraisinsareonlycuteifmarceltheshellisinvolved.

im your silver lining.

2011-03-17T13:01:00.001-07:00

ive seen some beautiful things in my life. ive seen pain, misery, sadness and somehow viewing all those things turn my thoughts to the gratitude i have for my life. nursing school…im sure you felt that coming…

-psych rotation=a month and a half long=feelings of holy crap im freaking out=extreme anxiety at the thought of being around people who my brain labeled as unstable

-during/post psych rotation=overwhelming feelings of love=wanting to share the gospel with every patient=remembering im wearing my nursing hat and i cant do that=i diagnose all my friends and people on the street as mentally unstable

i wasnt expecting the reaction i had when talking to strangers with huge life problems. the first day i forgot my badge and as the front desk guy handed me this hand written/paper/safety pin “badge” he told me, “good thing you said something cause we might have kept you.” uhhhhhhhh, my gaping mouth was open so wide that you could see my frightened soul within. our teacher tried to give us some tips cause she could see the fear in our eyes yet all we had to do this rotation was talk to the patients. no skills or IV’s, not even meds, just therapy for the patient. she told me, dont worry, they will come to you. so as i walked into that dark living room the first day and witnessed my first alcohol detox patient and then the other guy rocking in the corner, i calmly took a seat by the tv half expecting a fist to come flying at me then snatching my pathetic excuse for a badge to make a run for it. then he came. we sat and talked for hours. well, he did, i was practicing using silence as a therapeutic communication technique. it works. the days flew by and i found a deep love for psych, partly because i relate with these broken people. every drive home was a tearful event. why was i so blessed? yeah my family’s not perfect but there’s love in our home, i have purpose in life, ive had good examples, i aspire to be something. i dont have voices in my head or meth addicts as parents, or a dad that only taught me to never be a snitch. there is a deep obligation within me to lift others after this experience. i needed this to complete nursing school, but i also needed this to help me in life.

exploration station.

2011-02-14T15:19:00.001-08:00

at least 3 times this week my little nessa has come home frustrated with me. there’s a reoccurring theme in her life. apparently (unbenonced to me) her lover-ly friends stalk my blog and they inform her on a regular basis how long it’s been since i last posted. so ladies, this one goes out to all you secret stalkers. im uber flattered that anyone looks at this honestly. i just like having a rambling spot. my brain’s full of all sorts of junk. :)

and finally, the long awaited adventure post. this trip was full of breath taking views, a chance of a lifetime really. my dear friend Ottis hired me to photograph his slot canyon trails. he wanted to feature people interacting on these hikes so i invited none other than the famous Amelia + Devin Southworth, Cami + Rob McFarlane, and the ever handsome Brady. i cracked up when i saw the guesses for where i was headed. angela hit it on the head. these stunning views are found in Page, Arizona. you can enjoy this adventure for yourself. ill be posting the website with contact information soon. for now, enjoy it from my camera lens. caution: picture overload.

rocks and daggers.

2011-01-13T11:57:00.001-08:00

im packing.

-camera

-boots

-bandana

-camelback

-a case of diet coke. duh.

*can you put diet coke in a camelback?

-inhaler… :( dang you asthma.

-warm warm warm clothes.

-can you pack excitement? cause i am.

-some of the coolest people i know.

can you guess what im packing for? see you next week. :)

happy.

2011-01-11T23:43:00.001-08:00

this sunday, i found myself sitting behind a girl with a perfect braid, messy and unruly. as she turned to whisper to her friend i saw a glow about her and thought, wow she’s naturally beautiful. a beauty that some boys may not notice (i dont understand, nor will i try to understand what’s considered attractive to boys) and a beauty that i once would have scoffed at. i remember a time, when i’d see a pretty girl and i’d immediately hate her. i’d use her flawless features as some cruel means of torture to myself, using it against me, allowing jealousy and self loathing to soak into my soul. how fair is that? and what good did that do? all i was left with was a feeling of no self worth and zero self confidence. oh how glorious it is to see people differently. i think that’s something we all go through (as women). i also think that it is a tool used against us. today i made the mistake of watching the bachelor and i saw this in almost every girls eyes, granted it is a competition, but it reminded me of how destructive comparison is and how important it is to love ourselves. when we love and accept ourselves we are able to see the beauty in others. i would never claim to be great at this whole, loving on myself thing, but it is something im working on. always working on. but i have seen and felt and experienced the peace and joy it brings when i try to see as He sees. myself and others included.

thanks miss nadia for this lovely quote. you are so great/beautiful/lovely.

i try to find the sound.

2011-01-10T11:34:00.001-08:00

i want to wear this.

i want to own these.

i want to paint like this.

i want this to get inside me.

and i want to live here.

pretty.

ive been inspired by some pretty talented people lately. breathtaking much?

creds: find pretty things here, here, here, here and here.

say yes.

2011-01-06T14:47:00.001-08:00

-man wedding receptions are so girly. hey steve it’s been a while. how’s work treatin you?

-works been good, slow lately. how’s judy and the twins?

-aww man, they’re great. being a dad is crazy.

-you guys are so lucky, i want to get married. check out that hottie.

why do these little dudes look like they’re having this conversation? oh the joys of editing and having this brain of mine.

a new year.

2011-01-02T11:04:00.001-08:00

::11 resolutions for 2011::

1. eat good food always. a given, my motto for life.

2. take more pictures of my everyday adventures.

3. take chances and get hurt. (sounds weird…but fear of failure is a doozy to get over)

4. train for and run a half marathon. scary.

5. study so i can give patients the care they need and deserve. (fear of failure is rampant here)

6. fall hard for a boy. again, scary.

7. read my scriptures daily. sometimes i seriously stink at this. it’s oh so importante.

8. have less expectations. (this sounds like an anti-resolution resolution)

9. read books that make my heart hurt.

10. be happy.

11. crowd surf. oh wait…..

did that. in the first few minutes of 2011 in fact. :) happy new year!

you hit me once, ill hit you back.

2010-12-20T22:55:00.001-08:00

hi. remember me? cami bought me months ago, really ya’ll, it was a year ago. neglect much? my feminine/masculinity was hidden away under layers of dust while waiting to be properly displayed. i sat until that blessed evening when a sweet boy helped her achieve her dream of one day hanging me on her wall (he completely made the frame himself while she danced around the shop being distracting and obnoxious)(hey at least said girl picked out the paint, which is sea foam green, not baby blue like above picture, fail). aren’t you glad she finally updated about something she’s talked about in the past? weird huh. well she’s leaving for texas tomorrow. cool 11 hr drive. peace out girl scout, ill take care of your room for you. love, yo gangsta picture thang.

i whip my hair back and forth.

2010-12-18T10:37:00.001-08:00

i had a little fun with my girls yesterday. regretting not doing it myself. flowy hair pictures make my heart happy. especially seeing the giggles through the hairs.

you were 20,000 underneath the sea.

2010-12-16T18:16:00.001-08:00

picture of some wood, on some building.

words from le love.

feelings from inside me.

i love when MIA comes on my vampire weekend pandora station… it always reminds me how much i love shaking my booty.

give me back my broken parts.

2010-12-12T16:51:00.001-08:00

absence is to love what the wind is to fire. when it’s a small fire, the wind kills it. when it’s a real fire, it intensifies it. -very wise words from Diane Von Furstenberg-

i was very entertained during church to say the least. im reminded that im a girl when sparkly things entertain me. i might have done the dorthy heal click once or twice… (wouldnt you?) thank you ban.do. i love you very very much. i should say my toes love you very very much, but they’re connected to me, and i do the talking.

heart skipped a beat.

2010-12-10T10:20:00.001-08:00

ireally

needto updatemy website.

CamiTakesPhotos.com

dog dreams.

2010-12-07T09:37:00.001-08:00

dearest paige,

i was awakened brutally this morning by you jumping upon my face. sometimes i think you forget that you probably weigh more than me, and that means jumping on people’s face is a no-no. you then proceeded to lay across me, making a T, and licked my hand for a good 5 minutes. im guessing your imagination is tops and you were pretending it was a boston cream pie, or maybe you just love me. you then nestled into me like a baby bear cub preparing for hibernation, do you remember this part? it’s the part when you kicked me out of bed. i cant be too mad cause you’re snoring and moving your paws like you're dreaming of running through a field as a free/wild dog. i still love you paige but really, i think you’re getting a bit big for this.

love the sister of your master chief,

cami.

my soul has often found relief.

2010-12-03T15:06:00.001-08:00

institute never fails to lift me. being at clinical on sundays has drained me in all aspects of the word. last night we talked about how it’s easier to do what’s right when it’s beneficial to ourselves. my mind wandered (as usual) and these were my inner thoughts (of course related to school). so often we cram for things, finials, tests, presentations, papers. putting things off until the last possible second was something i thought was a gift of mine. i got strait A’s by cramming in college. but now looking back to those times, how much information was really retained? let me walk you through this…oh test in 2 days, cram, stress, zero patients for anyone i loved, memorize like a flipping wizard, take test, dump all information. how much of that biology would truly be beneficial to me now in nursing school. TONS. i’ve smartened up since then. i study often, i internalize the information, i connect the dots, yeah there’s still some cramming but that’s my safety net. these are peoples lives we’re taking about, not pointing out the lateral condyle of the femur on a fake skeleton. now lets change gears. life, what do i do so often that it sickens me. it’s saturday and there’s a talk to give, or a lesson, or a big decision to make and i cram like no bodies business. how is this any different? life isnt about cramming, or putting things off until the end. i want to be prepared, and the only way to do that is to study, give time and energy continuously. key word. continuously. life happens to all of us, how much more joyful would we be if we were prepared mentally, physically and spiritually. it seems so simple. thought vomit. :)

everybody’s lookin for a fix.

2010-11-28T21:09:00.001-08:00

every sunday night i come home, empty my scrub pockets and take off as much clothing as i can before entering the house. 12 hours at the hospital can lean to some stank nasty bugs on my scrubs. ive noticed an accumulation of alcohol swabs and fear that dwight schrewt might pop his head out of my closet and start fining me for stealing from the hospital. as of tonight, my PEDS rotation is over (THANK GOODNESS…surprise surprise, i hated it) and 3rd block’s coming to a close. lets just hope i get through finals and dont have to do that again.. i hear ill love them when they’re my own…shoot i hope so. the kids vomit in room 2 might have scarred me for life.

my thankful list.

2010-11-25T10:05:00.001-08:00

this morning my mind started scrabbling for what on earth i was going to say when it was my turn to announce to the fam-damly what i was thankful for (wow, breath. can you say run-on sentence?)… this was the list my mind made….

1. im thankful that i know what happens to evil lord voldemort. cause shoot, all that crying with no closure would be rough sauce.

2. im thankful for my unhealthy obsession with martha stewart and all the ways i continue to feel inadequate as a woman. but hey, at least i have something to aspire to. :)

3. mayhem from allstate insurance commercials. shaky shaky.

4. im thankful that the chosen one (my brother) is here from utah and that he’s getting the royal treatment as usual. it’s hard to be ticked when he gives such great hugs.

5. reese’s puffs, it’s like reese’s for breakfast.

6. all the people on this earth that make me happy. that list would be long to say the least. you know who you are, and i love you.

hmmm decisions decisions. how about, im grateful for my life. where i am. who i am. and where ive come from. im just grateful that im smiling.

girls just want to have fun.

2010-11-15T14:24:00.001-08:00

m to the ilosh + me from Cami Dunn on Vimeo.

we have no shame.

mr mason jennings.

2010-11-13T16:56:00.001-08:00

and honey i'm sure
that you've been in love before
plenty of men have held high places in your eyes
and jealousy has got no use for me
the past is beautiful
like the darkness between the fireflies

pic by miss millie.

we listened to it twice, cause the dj was asleep.

2010-11-04T16:20:00.001-07:00

text from mancub today: i have the need to do something exciting and adventurous.

we share the same needs.

pictures from the arizona state fair. we were a smidge out of place due to the snoop dogg show that night. you can imagine the people watching that occurred.

so sentimental.

2010-11-02T23:53:00.001-07:00

i just cant decide. the giving nature of TOMS has captivated me and once again ive been smitten with these two designs almost equally. so on this day of voting i propose a frivolous vote on some shoes for these two feet. help a sister out.

she’s gonna teach me how to swim.

2010-10-29T09:07:00.001-07:00

::happy list::

*seeing people who are truly in love. (remember when this made me vomitous? yeah, crazy.)

*noticing everyone rockin their sweat shirts and jackets the second the temp falls below 85.

*Lord_Voldemort7 on twitter. seriously, laugh out loud funny. hpforlifeyo.

*holding newborn babies, and calling it homework.

*sleeping in the cold, under the stars

*training for a 10K with a cute boy

*soup in cool weather

*opposable thumbs

*arizona fall

*mexico

picture from a recent wedding, L+G

knee deep snow.

2010-10-18T10:38:00.001-07:00

i’ve stopped coasting through life. waiting for happiness to come to me, im reaching out and grabbing it. it’s my constant goal to stop expecting so much of others. if we better ourselves to the point where others imperfect actions (which is only human) dont affect us, we arent as fragile. and in turn, we can lift others. we can act and not just be acted upon. i’ve found that there is so much joy to be felt, if we just let it into our lives. sometimes i feel that i’ve become callused, but i think a better description is that i’ve become more whole, and less reliant on others to feel happiness.

in relief society yesterday the lesson was on repentance. a sister raised her hand and said, “i think forgiving others when they havent apologized is a load of crap!” my inner jaw dropped. i thought, how frustrating it must be to live with a constant grudge because someone has wronged you. obviously this was a fresh wound talking, but i couldnt help but raise my hand. it’s freeing really, to forgive even if the offender hasnt asked for forgiveness or apologized. you are kept from harboring feelings of anger and letting them eat away at your from the inside out. and i strongly feel that if you understand the depth of the atonement, this practice becomes habit, and again becomes freeing.

pic on our mexican beach. i call it ours cause we’re typically the only ones on it. love me some vaca.

a time bomb baby.

2010-09-30T14:43:00.001-07:00

life’s funny. unexpected. emotional (if you let it be).

ive started my OB section of nursing school… and i find myself tearing up daily. this is coming from a person who hasnt cried in over 9 months, so it’s kind of a big deal. i thought id lost that ability, to feel deeply for anyone, let alone a baby i didnt know. it’s hard to let go, to let my feelers feel, i think it’s part of the aftermath of extreme pain. just one more stitch in this thing called a heart. i think i’ve found my niche in life, or at least in nursing.

picture by miss millie.

skinny love.

2010-09-13T11:05:00.001-07:00

pretty things.

i {heart} secret in-church pinky holds.

shoot me with your rubber bullets.

2010-09-01T23:47:00.001-07:00

love, my dirty pair of toms.

utah bound.

ps. dont be afraid to tell people how lovely they are. nice people are the best.

most random post award goes to me.

loves. you.

open me up and you will see, im a gallery of broken hearts

2010-08-26T14:24:00.001-07:00

school started. and despite all the realness school brings, im excited. this semester im working with mothers and children (OB and PEDS!) and i absolutely adore it. this summer felt strange and freeing all at the same time. being able to go where ever, when ever i wanted made it extremely painful to come back down to the real world. regardless, i think there’s a comfort that comes with having a set schedule, waking up at a normal hour, eating real food…i mean, sprinkles and sonic arent exactly healthy… and ive come back rejuvenated. trying to put these feelings into words is very difficult, but i feel that im coming back to school as me. ive finally found the person ive been looking for this past year (can you believe it’s been a year?) and all along i was looking for myself. i had been lost in a whirlwind of heart ache and the frightening reality that i was alone. i finally feel comfortable in my skin, i can look myself in the eyes and smile at the person looking back at me. i guess it’s a lot more than the set schedules that has brought comfort back into my life. it’s the sense of knowing who i am, and loving it.

i nearly finished my wall project this summer.. i guess ill just have to go antique paroozing to fill in the gaps.. picture below. picture above is from here.

you say time heals. there’s not enough of it.

2010-08-19T16:45:00.001-07:00

think of others today.

love unconditionally.

that’s all.

from the passenger seat.

2010-08-07T16:12:00.001-07:00

cami’s summer part 2 in pictures.

photo 1: it’s been a journey, an all encompassing physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual journey this summer/year. my life has changed dramatically, and yet i have found myself through one of the most difficult trials and one of the most rewarding experiences. as im looking back im realizing that i had be broken, shattered even, in order to grow. so now i can say, im grateful. grateful for that trial. shocking on so many levels but true.

photo 2: beauty is in the eye of the beholder. in this case, wallpaper = bomb, so naturally i took a picture.

photo 3: couch.

photo 4: driving by my lonesome. listening to my inner thoughts. falling in love with Arizona over and over again. growing up all i wanted to do was get out of here and now all i want to do is stay. funny how things change.

photo 5: casey keele. he sings, he dances, he’s my boss from efy. he made me laugh, he made me cry, he made me see.

photo 6: these are little blessings from heaven designed to give children things to imagine and dream about while on long road trips. to me they were always an army of cats. the other shapes were their dog enemies….i was an interesting child.

photo 7: i wish i had pictures of all the amazing youth i’ve been blessed to interact with this summer. i learned some incredible life lessons that will help me be a better mother and wife someday, as well as a stronger church member. some of you have asked what efy is.. it’s summer camp. but more than that, it’s a powerful, life changing, eye opening experience for the youth of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. i was blessed to be a counselor and to teach and strive to be the best example i could for these youth and man did i feel inadequate. but i was molded and shaped and strengthened in ways i couldnt of dreamed possible. i learned through it that this life is about progress and continuously learning and now is my time to endure as well. thank you for an amazing summer all my little efy babies. yo mama loves you. thank you for all that you’ve taught me.

till we meet again.

2010-07-02T00:52:00.001-07:00

can i please go back? there is too much emotion attached to my efy experience to attempt to put it into words.

it was moving.

it was powerful.

it changed me.

im so happy to be alive, to know what i know.

miss emma, sorry your face is blurry.

2010-06-13T01:23:00.001-07:00

im excited. im excited. im excited. for e f y. good bye for 2 weeks my dears.

photo at la grande orange. yum.

ida-potata-ho.

2010-06-11T22:39:00.001-07:00

my trip in pictures.

photo 1: my addictions/travel buddies. happiness included.

photo 2: goodness me it’s yellowstone.

photo 3: gangsta face cami + wide eyed bride/lovey/happiness maker.

photo 4: our nightly entertainment.

photo 5: my new man. he wants me.

photo 6: worth every second. i love my job.

wee-oo i look just like buddy holly.

2010-06-07T14:38:00.001-07:00

facebook. the new dating scene. i’ve started noticing a funny pattern in my inbox. exibit A… just a few of the messages from boys i dont know.

“Hey I feel way bad to ask this but I don't know where we met i know you through the girls but have we ever met in person. If so I am going to feel bad.”

“hey i apologize...i can't remember where i met you or when we became friends on facebook. but i see your pictures come up here and there, and i think they are really good. thats all.”

oh you sly little devils you. these ice breakers into conversation are flattering and creepy all at the same time.

photos from my weekend idaho adventure. we had a little bit-o-fun.

the freckles in our eyes are mirror images

2010-05-26T22:44:00.001-07:00

what you see before you was my dinner tonight. what you cant see is the horrible stomach ache that followed. just one of the things to check off my summer to do list… which consists of:

-spending an obnoxious amount of time at the lake.

-diving into all the books i’ve been holding back on all semester.

-eating sprinkles as often as possible.

-EFY!

-being spontaneous/at least 1 fun summer road trip.

-participating in local service projects..any ideas? send them my way..

-crafts… i probably have at least 6 started..so finish crafts..

-creating my photography blog/updating all the shoots i have saved up.

-enjoying all the lovely blogs i had to cut back on last semester.

-not doing anything for an entire day…this one is going to be great.

summer, i welcome you with open arms. come to mama.

patience.

2010-05-21T12:13:00.001-07:00

“….patients means staying with something until the end. it means delaying immediate gratification for future blessings. it means reining in anger and holding back the unkind word. it means resisting evil, even when it appears to be making others rich…in your patience you win mastery of your souls..” – Elder Uchtdorf

in a world where everything is immediately gratifying, patience is hard to come by. it’s something that i must consciously think about daily because human nature tells me to freak out every time someone’s actually going the speed limit, or walking too slowly to class. i keep seeing this reoccurring pattern in my life, telling me to slow down ...and today i realized that patience is a huge part of that.

slow down. why rush? enjoy life, dont sprint through it.

bold.

2010-05-13T08:50:00.001-07:00

im loving on these bold stripes from Design is Mine.+ending with the perfect frame collage from Decor8. oh the things i swoon over.

reunited and it feels so goooood.

2010-05-12T19:53:00.001-07:00

im baaaack.

that wasnt creepy.

+ i passed block 2 of nursing school + i cant wait to share all the shoot goodness i have saved up!

pen vs. pencil.

2010-05-03T19:32:00.001-07:00

dido audrey. i do i do i do believe in miracles.

ps. his name is nick.

this is millie.

2010-04-21T20:07:00.001-07:00

millie is neat/beautiful/talented/compassionate/everything good in this world/has been there for me though it all

she’s a great companion on cali road trips, takes crazy pics with me in restaurants full of staring people, and makes me laugh/cry/everything in-between. the everything in-between is what makes us great friends.

your friends are your world, and she’s a big part of mine.

ps. please ignore the ginormous soda in hand.

pps. ill fill in the blanks from last post soon…i dont want to jinx it.

ppps. i definitely got a ticket post in-car photo shoot… boo first ticket ever. millie even held my hand while i got choked up about said first ticket…great quality.

my cup runneth over

2010-04-13T13:28:00.001-07:00

i cant stop smiling.

im simply and completely happy.

help!

2010-04-08T19:10:00.001-07:00

im in dire need of some guidance.

i have a love of art in all forms, words, pictures, paintings. you cant put a price on something that speaks to you. with that being said, my bank account is going to be very upset if i purchase all three.

so please vote for your favorite, it will make my wall very happy… and maybe me too.

dont think im weird but…

2010-04-07T14:55:00.001-07:00

it’s vegetarian week, well for me at least. i might be trying it out, not vegan, but no fast food allowed.. kind of a big deal for me. i also might be going barefoot tomorrow. i might have also gotten this little jewel on my windshield today. see the animals do care, especially roast beef animals.

being a vegetarian rocks.

im tied up in knots.

2010-04-02T18:47:00.001-07:00

always prepared to slay lions. probably my best quality.

ps. im fighting off my demons. conference this weekend is sure to be a booster shot in my behind. love you all.

the storm is coming but i dont mind.

2010-03-28T15:27:00.001-07:00

im fading, being consumed. eaten away. im stuck in this awkward stage between feeling ready to fly, to start fresh, and being completely petrified of letting go. there are so many fears.. loss of trust, inadequacy, change, fear of pain, lies, more trust issues …somehow (i dont know how but somehow) i have to get over this. i wish the cure was in the form a pill that i could swallow, it would dissolve and so would my troubles.

this wound will mend, this gaping, cankerous wound on my heart. i know because the healing process has started, through music, comfort food, laughter, and friends. through church, pictures, and knowledge, my heart is slowly becoming whole again. but there are pieces missing here and there that i dont know how to reassemble (or where to find them for that matter). i guess the knowledge that im healing should be comforting, so ill just keep holding onto that. and maybe someday ill find those missing pieces and be whole once again.

the floor is falling out from under us

2010-03-25T07:28:00.001-07:00

i am far from perfect. but i will be perfect for that imperfect someone who is perfect for me. –by someone that has a big brain.

im a photographer… and i shoot people. get it? oh man, sometimes i crack myself up.

arizona is green?

2010-03-22T20:46:00.001-07:00

oh how i love the sky.

when ever i find myself deep in thought i end up gazing into the heavens. especially the night sky, with the stars and moon. some of my most personal and spiritual experiences happen outdoors, in complete darkness, lying under the stars.

feeling so small, and realizing how grand this world is, can be breathtaking.

photo from a photo-oto shoot.

my favorite color is light tan.

2010-03-21T19:39:00.001-07:00

sometimes i think im girly (like an entire post ago)… and then i get snapped back to reality realizing that i dont know what half of these things are…

MEXICO was amazing, i kinda let go, kinda went crazy, kinda had a lot of fun. might have embarrassed my family, or might have made them laugh a lot, either way works for me. :) team camitney + team mitchnessa for life.

OMG as in Oh. My. Gosh.

2010-03-17T18:22:00.001-07:00

can i please have this bed? when did i become all girly?

i want to cross oceans.

2010-03-15T13:27:00.001-07:00

i miss you guys.

oh, im one year older and wiser too. i love that there’s a huge cloud of smoke above my head in this picture…proof that i am now OLD. congrats me.

whats a girl to do

2010-02-24T20:56:00.001-08:00

just in case you didnt notice… it’s amazing and beautiful and glorious outside. i think ill just enjoy some me time outside today before it gets too late.. aka hot. love you arizona.

i hope that someday ill see with out these frames

2010-02-18T11:52:00.001-08:00

saturday morning goodwill trip anyone? im feeling inspired to search for one of these jems.. and then call it vintage.

announcement.

2010-02-16T09:07:00.001-08:00

i still haven't heard back from efy, but regardless….

this summer ill be in utah.

and when i say ill be in utah, i mean ill be taking pictures in utah. :)

i heart you and stuff

2010-02-15T09:24:00.001-08:00

dear dunes,

i dont know if you’ve noticed but im covered in sand. i keep finding it in my hair, in my shoes, in my ears, in-between my toes. do you remember when i was involved in a head on collusion that included my face and your sandy duney side? oh yeah, that was this weekend… maybe that’s why im covered with an endless supply of your sandy goodness. thank you for your rolling hills, your bowls and lips, they were very distracting from all things related to school and work. the only thing i could compare you to is the most amazing roller coaster that i had complete control of. so dont change a thing, ill be back to visit you soon.

love with all my heart

cami

happy v day.

2010-02-10T16:58:00.001-08:00

im bitter.. not really but honestly, seeing people who are mushy in love right now makes me a little sick. i saw dear john, made me want to punch a baby. (not really, i love babies. but you get the picture right?) the big v day is coming up, and i think im going to have to do something incredibly awesome, preferably destructive… i think that’s why my dad planned a dunes trip over this weekend… so i can secretly go crazy and let my anger out on a quad. thank you papito.

& who needs boys anyways… when there’s diet coke?

dear you.

2010-02-05T16:26:00.001-08:00

things i’ve learned during my days in the world again. (it honestly feels like i’ve been brain washed to remember nothing about being single and a gangster?)

1. “girl, your phone is blowing up” is not a terrorist threat, and yes i was scared the first time i heard that.

2. “shorty” or “short-ay” is not someone that is short.. it’s a girl? still dont get that one, i dont see myself ever being called that.. if anything they’d call me gigantore.

3. being friends is a bad thing… but why? i love being friends…

please send any and all tips my way, cause im lost.

tell me when you hear my heart stop.

2010-02-04T16:28:00.001-08:00

if we all put our problems on a poster, on a wall, and could choose which one we’d want…we’d pick our own, because we know how to overcome them. institute blew my mind last night.

love it and live it.

ps. thank you keisha for finding this picture goodness.

drag my feet along the floor.

2010-02-02T08:40:00.001-08:00

my motto for life. try it, you’ll never be disappointed.

picture from a recent shoot.. love me some aubrey.

i get nervous every time you speak.

2010-02-01T18:24:00.001-08:00

can i just say that i love all of you. and thank you for all the kind words. this blog has been ridiculously therapeutic for me through it all. i didnt see any of this coming, but now i can see where im going, and i hope you all stay to enjoy the ride with me.

delicate.

2010-01-30T10:10:00.001-08:00

we all have chapters to our lives, and one of mine has come to a close. these chapters, whether lovely or terribly hard, help define who we are as a person by how we handle ourselves, or even how we choose to let them effect us. i have a lot to be grateful for, a lot to smile about, and so much ahead of me. im finally to the point where i can see the good in what has happened and have learned so much about me, what i want, and who i want to be.

most of what i’ve discovered is that im a huge nerd. surprised? nah, nerds rock.

walk away from my door.

2010-01-28T15:43:00.001-08:00

i need to update my blog.. but im going running instead.

im a little addicted to it. what’s happening to me? and no im not going in high heals. peace. love.

im crawling through landmines

2010-01-20T18:47:00.001-08:00

warning: picture overload goodness. i had a hard time choosing just one.

my lover-ly new bestie emma let me spend a day snapping pics of her. i loved every second of the wet, freezing cold day. we’re freakishly alike. at the gas station before our road trip, we both walked up to the register only to discover that we both had a bag of salt & vinegar chips, a glazed doughnut and diet coke.. this is gonna be a great friendship.

im a girl you know.

2010-01-14T13:06:00.001-08:00

im now a runner. running makes me happy. running is also melting away my cankles (my self conscious body part, along with my ears).

thank you running.

picture of me. :D photoshoot with miss angie-pangie from Sloan Photographers. she made me feel pretty and girly which is hard to do. love them.

fresh start.

2010-01-12T12:09:00.001-08:00

i have a big announcement.

with the new year comes many changes, one of those changes being my love, my passion, my photography. im now cami takes photos.

please enjoy. :)

a new year.

2010-01-02T15:10:00.001-08:00

so a new year begins.

this new leaf in my book is going to be a good one, guaranteed. thank you to all the lovely lovely people who have helped me get through this dark time in my life. im stepping out into the light, and letting go.

happy new year everyone.

yuck-a-doo

2009-12-30T09:57:00.001-08:00

im sick.

the sore throat that goes all the way up into my nose and now my ears hurt kind of sick.

it’s making me a bit crazy, it’s eaten away my patience skills that i’ve been building for so long. the smile that i glued on is slowly gliding downward and it’s made wearing my pajamas a permanent fixture. so this is your warning, try and avoid me at all costs, im cranky.

im working on a big announcement that will be very soon! keep a look out!

i {heart} christmas.

2009-12-27T10:18:00.001-08:00

check out my moms rad picture taking skills, and my mad sense of style. does anything im wearing match?

im heading to page again. this time we’ll be listening to The Host and perhaps sipping hot cocoa instead of a diet coke… mmmmm nah.

it’s the most wonderful time..

2009-12-25T08:08:00.001-08:00

i love mi familia.

on christmas day we walk around telling each other, “Happy Christmas Harry'” in our best british accents.

yeah, we rock.

there’s one thing i want to say, so ill be brave..

2009-12-23T21:59:00.001-08:00

today, i applied to be an EFY counselor.

and i really hope i get the opportunity… but if i dont, i’ll be okay. im just so glad that my life is going in that direction and that my heart longs to be there.

it’s the most craftiest tiiiiiime of the year. picture of the progress of my garland. :)

oooh bother.

2009-12-21T14:57:00.001-08:00

someone please tell me these are weird so ill stop wanting them…

online shopping is the devil.

last christmas i gave you my heart.

2009-12-20T17:50:00.001-08:00

today was just one of those off days. silent tears and blubbery tears and crumpled face tears. i hope this isnt my new form of holiday spirit.. my goal is to have a lovely week, lose myself in some service and attempt to enjoy this time of year. im hoping that by my next post ill be my bubbly self again, for now you just get me and my moodiness. :)

it’s over.

2009-12-16T07:17:00.001-08:00

that death trap of a semester is finally OVER. i can breathe again!

now to get into the holiday spirit and celebrate! baking.. here i come.. after i finish my edits. does anyone know of some good holiday music?

we’re all just lovers and takers

2009-11-29T13:24:00.001-08:00

for what we love determines what we seek.

what we seek determines what we think and do.

what we think and do determines who we are – and who we will become.

-Elder Uchdorf

im thankful for sundays. my heart is so full of gratitude for all that i have, and for the knowledge i have. today was a good day.

the seas had swallowed her ankles

2009-11-28T16:54:00.001-08:00

sometimes i take myself on dates. and sometimes on those dates, i eat pei wei in my room.. by myself.. and it’s glorious.

i also sing in the car and dance and sometimes (most of the time) it’s in broad daylight.

you’re my clean. white. love.

2009-11-27T18:53:00.001-08:00

what im working on instead of studying. i think you would do the same.

we drop drop tears like tally marks, im keeping score

2009-11-24T18:28:00.001-08:00

i dont know if im going to make it through the next three weeks… i didnt think it was humanly possible to have this much stress. so ill be away for a while studying and editing and studying and trying not to freak out, maybe looking for premature gray hairs. you may find a dozen or so diet cokes scattered in there too, i know, not very original.

just me.

shake the frame of this house

2009-11-22T17:58:00.001-08:00

my goodwill $35 find. everytime i pass it in the house i smile.

im going to start making a list of things that i love, that make me smile or laugh. it’s so important that i focus on the positive in my life, it easily overshadows, consumes and blots away the negative.

photo from my shoot today. they were lovely.

they’re gonna eat me alive, if i stumble

2009-11-21T21:28:00.001-08:00

this is what happens when im upset.. my floor becomes a sea of shredded fabric.

the one perk is that something lovely will come from my heartache.

if you would like to donate fabric to the “keep cami sane” fund, email me… can you tell i had a bad day?

when the birds are sleeping that’s when the trees sing

2009-11-20T16:39:00.001-08:00

oh boy, do i love the fall.

going to phantom of the opera tonight.

new moon

2009-11-19T09:08:00.001-08:00

Any one else excited for this tonight?

Yes it may be the screaming, giddy tween inside me coming out, but i cant wait. Guaranteed to be giddy clapping throughout the movie.

God made dirt and dirt dont hurt

2009-11-17T14:05:00.001-08:00

good morning beautiful.

from my mini road trip to page aka lake powell. sometimes i love the desert.

there is no better loss then to lose myself in you

2009-11-14T16:34:00.001-08:00

id like to take this opportunity to pat myself on the back for getting a B on my nursing test (huge improvement from failing cami)… and finishing the editing of this shoot.

the editing was fun, studying.. not so much.

you are what you love, not what loves you back

2009-11-13T15:27:00.001-08:00

my dad always says funny things to me. i dont know if they are meant to make me smile but they do.

today he told me, “oh look, you combed your hair today. i always like it when you comb your hair.”

i replied… dad, i comb my hair every day. and then smiled big. men.

bright star

2009-11-11T21:50:00.001-08:00

im a sucker for any movie set in the 19th century.

this movie was breathtaking and lovely and only rated PG.

“There is a holiness to the hearts affections.”

we just gotta take our time

2009-11-09T08:45:00.001-08:00

what the caterpillar calls the end of the world

the master calls a butterfly

complication’s my claim to fame

2009-11-08T07:53:00.001-08:00

i feel fuzzy.. everything is blurry and unclear and frustrating… this picture speaks volumes.

is there a fuzzy off switch?

come clean, all around me

2009-11-04T17:15:00.001-08:00

my shoot today. success.

with my feet on the dash, the world doesn't matter.

2009-11-02T07:27:00.001-08:00

ive decided to be happy.

image found here.

i heart Neeno.

2009-10-30T10:37:00.001-07:00

happy birthday sister.

you drop dead gorgeous foxy lady.

prepare yourself to be smothered in love today.

you’re a whopping 19 years old now, which is old.

love love love love love your bones.

all that i know is im breathing.

2009-10-26T20:38:00.001-07:00

hope

keep holding on

and repeat.